[clear - refresh] ---THE ETCH-A-SKETCH BLOG--- [created by may]


11/07/2003
it's certainly not woweee anymore... it's certainly not that great anymore. things aren't certainly better than before, things aren't certainly what i expected them to be.
imagine... just imagine, this great plan you've created for yourself, this great big supposedly well-planned plan u have that you are going to execute soon... just imagine.

then just like a pack of cards, so sudden so immediate, so ruthless, the plan is shredded up and u are left with nothing, for everything is disposed off, everything. that's it, that's how my life has been for the past few days, ever since saturday, it's coming close to a week ever since that disposition of the plan has taken place.

i feel ...................i feel....................... i feel................. i dunno what i'm feeling right now. i'm feeling................ i'm devestated, i'm a little lost, i think what i resemble right now is a cup of half filled water being turned over, and turned back upright again, empty. i'm empty, just so empty. am i supposed to feel sad or am i supposed to feel angry? my feelings have left me, i feel nothing. i'm numb, from pain, cruelty, from immense disappointment.

but i'm trying. i try to live my life again, for when the day is gone, that day isn't coming back anymore. my efforts aren't in vain so far. it's been gladdening to know all those friends out there, i must thank you all for your support. it's been a great help. thanks for our friendships.

but as i 'wait' for things to decide for themselves, i can only do so in helplessness. it's painful, all the memories. shall i ever emerge from the depths..... only time will tell.... only time.

Something did change your love for me.........





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