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17/07/2005
four weeks of ocs over, another 34 more to go. things are going to move faster in a weeks' time and admist the inevitable fatigue and occasional longing to be displaced from my location, i will learn the ropes and must aim to learn fast.

it has not been as smooth-sailing as i hoped it would be. the people people connection, in my case, is lacking somewhat and i lack the spunkiness required here.learning about new weapons, learning at a breath-taking pace is not very ideal, but one will have to adapt.there are the lessons and theory tests, and it does resemble school. everyone will be in their bunks mugging, be it on the test banks on the comps or using the very dated manuals. it's impt to pass the first time as it may mean a confinement if u have to retake it. no one is willing to give up such time.

i can't curb the emotions that sway within me. it sways me and imbalances me. How can it be that a high emotion can be replaced by slight misery and despair? which is why it is difficult to understand myself sometimes. perhaps i'm changing, adjusting to a new me. perhaps i'm considering things from new and better perspectives? perhaps i'm growing? i have known that this 2 years and now more specifically this 9 months will be the time for me to grow and mature for the coming years where i'll have to make major decisions that decide my life. some poise and composure is required here.

there certainly are some aspects i'll have to reconsider.

wizzing away on 9:55 AM

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