[clear - refresh] ---THE ETCH-A-SKETCH BLOG--- [created by may]


09/10/2005
Exercise PC wasn't the job i expected it to be. i couldn't do the job as expected and my pc did voice out about changing the exercise pc on 2 occasions. how i felt like giving up along the way, the stress level, the falsely interpreted sense of loneliness as i felt pple were just leaving me to do the job alone. i wanted it to be my plan and i wanted to command and lead well. The command and control for ex jaguar was far from satisfactory.

but i have learnt. i have learnt so much. so many times i told myself i wanted to give a briefing that could answer all queries; i ended worse off, even having plenty of questions for myself as i read on. an ops order is not easy to deliver, i have always pushed for a good delivery of the ops order. so many interruptions, so many pauses and hesitant moments. it was really far from desirable.

there were a number of occasions i felt the stress and the burden coming on n i felt like giving up, my self-confidence rock low. how could i be unable to answer the challenges put up by others? they came fast and furious and i found myself unable to respond in kind. i was defeated, talked down too.

you'll never want to go through it. but it's about being tru it that u get the feeling and even learn to work with it. that's the best way to learn. i failed in this mission. but i'm going to make sure when i do so next time, no more failure. it gets better from here.
surely.

wizzing away on 4:46 PM

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